Bloggy Celebrations…

Jan, Feb, Mar, Apr, May, June,  July,  A … Arrr.. Juneli…..There should be August.. after July. But as August is finishing today… We can call it month of  Juneli. 🙂 puzzled .. the day August ends.. its the birthday of our blog friend Juneli.

We few friends who started blogging four years back has seen the blogging’s crazy times , lazy times, sad times, lovely moments and many thoughtful posts.  She spreads the cultural and literary essence from the Beautiful Valley of Kathmandu.

Juneli Cake

On behalf of all blog friends, we wish you, A Very Very happy birthday. May God bless you the happy face, calm soul and wish your creative pen flows down with the honest and simple thoughts like ever.

Many many Happy returns of the day.  Hey Juneli.. have your pie of cake from here 🙂

In Search Of…

On her face –
Innocent like a kid.
She has some questions.
Those sleep in her eyes.
Those dances in her dreams.

The questions –
About the dew drops,
About the red rose,
About the caterpillar on leaf.
About herself
And about Him,
Who made dawn and dusk –
Also made her questions.

She searches for the answers-
In the meadows,
In the rains drops – fallen on leaves.
In the stupid air –
That touched her cheek
And made her blush.

Lost in the questions,
That she never understands,
And she does not either wants
All answers said by Someone .
But she loves her questions.
That makes her eyes dreamy,
In the night –
As the eyes had seen the day.

Today she is crazy –
She has only – one question left
One question about someone –
Who will be along with.
Searching for the answers.
About the journey –
She is blessed with.

Helplessness

If some one really needs me, but my conscience does not allow to do so after repeated struggle between the heart and mind – I feel pitiable helpless !  I do understand that my small help will matter a ton to him and I wish to help him out.  And my conscience tells that without that small help, things are bound to go wrong.

My sixth sense, the kid inside, never went wrong in such contexts ! Consequently, the kid’s heart over took mind and I was determined to help him out of situation.

I slept determined for the morning to come, when I will say  – I am here – tell me what you need.  I slept – and the night did not allowed to go the morning as determined.  I saw the dream – the repeated dream – of restless mind –  I was shocked to see the repeatability of dream. The feared dream – that became true in past, again resurfaced to the eyes. I woke up as I believe in my dreams – they give me many a answers before itself. The kid in the man feared after the dream.

Till next morning I could not sleep properly – the humanity not died exactly to give a place to devil – but it turned as numb helpless and knowing well the things are going wrong.

Still I wish things must not go the wrong way – as my eyes can see clearly.  May God help the person some other way – as I am unable to help myself .

The serial Bomb blasts in Bangalore – Need to be alert

The serial Bomb blasts in Bangalore rocked the peaceful city today 25 July. The 7 bombs were of low intensity,  said to be blasted at interval of 15 mins, rocked the security system of Bangalore. The relatively cool Friday afternoon, altered the mental peace of hundreds of corporate workers, and the peace loving citizens. Whoever may be behind such heinous crime, these made a scar on the heart of Garden city.

Few days back, when we used to see high security of ISKCON temple, we used to wonder – why God needs so much of protection.  Though ISKCON is totally safe in today’s incident and nothing happend to that.  But we need think, as there are psychos roaming around, a small hit of a small stone on head matters. Thus the level of alertness must be increased to protect the city  – hence ourselves. There is also need to be normal in our daily lives and keep such peace breaker agents neglecting.

Tribute to Olive Riley – World’s oldest blogger

My Tribute to World’s Oldest blogger. OLIVE RILEY.  Her original blog is http://www.allaboutolive.com.au/.  She just inspires us to keep blogging…

To Olive
————
Nothing remained.
Your body buried down.
So your fingers,
Played on keyboard.
Deep into the earth.
The sound is lost in the air.
The sweat and tears,
Of yours,
Tastes nothing..

But you are alive,
Dear,
In words, Images,
Beyond the body,
Beyond the boundary,
Of nations,
As memories,
In the mind of readers.

You –
The someone,
Who waited for comments.
Will not await.
But the memories,
Words, and feelings,
– We did shared ,
That we do carry.
We will carry.
And the journey
Will go on.. go on…..
Go on…
Till we all meet
There in stars….

Love,
Prem.

The eternal dreams

Closing my eyes –
I wish to live with –
My dreams –
They are true –
In themselves.

Along with my soul –
They will be with me,
Till my last sleep.
When you wouldn’t say –
“Wake up”.

Let me sleep.
For a while –
If you can,
Wherever you are,
Close your eyes too,
And please share,
Along with me –
The eternal dreams.

—————-

(The post image belongs to: http://www.monicagiglio.com)

When Her Mirror Lied…

“Tring ! Tring !!”

And as promised to Priyangini, Abhilash returned early from office. They had to go for Kushagra’s reception that day.

After tea, he changed the office dress to party wear. And all this hardly took ten minutes for him. He knew that Priyangini will take long to get ready.

After marriage for few months, he used to get irritated about the prolonged famous ladies make up. But as their understanding grew up, Abhilash now-a-days did not had complains against her now a days. His life had changed after his marriage. He knew the well kept dresses in the wardrobe makes feel of Priyangini everywhere. Otherwise he recalled his bachelorhood room – cloths, socks, newspapers and cigarette butts spread every where.

So knowing about the time available, he sat on his laptop for some essential presentation for next day meeting.

She was getting ready in her merino blue colored embroidery silk. On her complexion, not many colors used to suit her. The fact was, that day she took a lot of time to choose a Saree for herself. Afterall it was the reception of Abhilash best friend Kushagra. She sprayed the gifted french perfume ‘Esense’.

For Priyangini, ‘Esense’ had some memories embedded into, so its fragrance always made her smile.

For today’s party she got her facial done two days before itself. With the diamond ring on ring finger, that was gifted on last valentine, she was feeling complete. It was her first time or better to say her first opportunity when she can display her diamond to others.

They reached the Hotel GreenGold. She got down the car, walking steadily. Once again thought came to her – may others say “You are looking beautiful.” And she wore a big smile, the only asset in her whole appearance apart from her height.

Being a self conscious person, she knew well that she was not as beautiful as other corporate ladies present there. To describe Priyangini, she had a big nose on the wheatish face, dotted with left over pimple marks, and the short dry hairs – which she used to cut often to keep away parting ends. At party she could not use heavy specs too – but the marks on nose were obvious.

On the other hand Abhilash was a perfect tall gentleman. And in party wear, he looked like a smart university student again.

Priyangini’s friends used to poke her – “What magic you played on him?” And she used to answer very innocently – “Ask the great Magician!” Not many could understand her intellectual reply.

There in party, to keep herself at best, she re-arranged her Saree pallu, waved her fingers through her hairs. Sometimes she arranged her diamond ring, such that that may appear clearly to others. She expected may many will praise her with some honest words – “You look great!” There were compliments on her saree colour and matching embroidery blouse match. “Fantastic”, ”Cool or better to say Kewl” but she was little happy on these fake metro praises. Only the mother of Kushagra hugged her and appreciated her. She knew Kushagra’s family very well. They loved her as their own daughter.

They were returning from the party.

The car was passing the MG Road’s darker part. Street light were faint. In car CD player was playing on and Abhilash was lost in his classical tunes. And there was a different tune playing in Priyangini’s head. Not being a beautiful, honestly she had little complaint to God since she was a girl, whenever she used to compare herself to her sister. But she was making herself happy for being whatever she way. She used to think – “To other persons, I don’t have complaint much – as I don’t deserve the praises.“ On the other hand Abhilash praised her a lot, and pampered her, but she had unsaid complaints against Abhilash’s false praises.

She did introspection of herself . What she wished actually, ”To be praised or not to be praised!” But the thing accepted that she was not beautiful.

Car was running smooth in night. The windows of cars were down. And in the cool breeze entering into, she was lost in her world.

“You are beautiful!” was the most well heard lie, she heard from Abhilash. And when one day when she was touching her pimples in front of mirror, Abhilash suddenly came from back, and lovingly said, “These are just the lovely spots on my moon.” And there were such hundreds praising lies she heard from him. Many a times she used to get irritated with his lies, so one day she thought to say him – “you are the cutest lier of world.” Turning her head towards right, she smiled on her cutest driver.

She was thinking so many odd and even things and like their life, the car moved on.

Suddenly she shouted “Abhilash, STOP CAR!”

Abhilash could not understand but broke hard. With a screech the car stopped.

“I saw something on road!”

“What?”

“Perhaps a puppy or cat.”

“Huh! Then!”

It was around 11:30 night and road was almost empty and the area was not safe either. But she opened the door without thinking a second and got down.

Abhilash followed her. She was right. There was a puppy walking on three legs. The fourth leg was bleeding. Perhaps some passing vehicle injured that poor creature.

She picked the puppy up. Abhilash knew that it was useless to suggest her anything right now. In back light of car, he could see clearly. Holding the puppy made her hands full of blood. ‘Her Saree may get blood stains’ – thinking Abhilash gave handkerchief to her.

She wrapped the puppy in handkerchief and then took out back seat towel to wrap the puppy. And holding puppy in her lap they reached home. Abhilash did not speak much, but he was hearing what she was telling. Abhilash was against pets and the puppy was not good looking either.

At home till late night, she did the first aid of puppy and Googled the net for some near by veterinary doctor. It was an ugly puppy and there were peculiar black and white patches on its whole body.

One week passed off.

Though puppy was better now but it still used to walk on three legs – fourth leg needed some time to get cured – as the veterinary doctor said. Priyangini bought extra milk, dog biscuit, dog soap, dog shampoo, towels, dog vitamins, and so many dog etc – Abhilash could not oppose as she was happy with it.

One morning when Abhilash returned from the gym and Priyangini brought him the glass of juice. The little puppy was playing with his shoes. “Masy!” he called the puppy. And the puppy left the shoe there only and looked innocently towards Abhilash.

“Looks so nice na” Abhilash said looking towards the puppy. Picking the puppy up he again repeated “Looks so nice na.” In fact he said so to make Priyangini happy.

“Sometimes you can tell the truth na. Do false praise always work? If something is not beautiful don’t tell that’s beautiful. Can’t you say the truth?” Priyangini seemed shouting unexpectedly. Perhaps she wanted to tell so since long.

Abhilash was shocked but it was not unexpected. The truth was hitting him. Same type of question Priyangini asked before marriage.

There was pin drop silence. Masy jumped out of Abhilash’s lap.

They knew what happened. She went inside house. Abhilash reclined on the cane chair closing his eyes. Another minute, inside the eyes, his pupils were wet. He recalled the day when in park she had said “If I am not beautiful, why do you lie – you are beautiful. I wish to hate your lie. But I can’t …! Abhilash, you may find a better girl than me …”

Like as usual, within minutes the storm subsided. She was again there standing behind him. With her ever soft touch, she wiped the tears.

“Geyser is on. Will not you go for bath. Dirty boy!” She tried to make him easy after teasing.

Still closed eyes, feeling the touch of her palms, he hold them with his both hands. He kissed her both hands and made her sit on the handle of the chair.

She sat on the handle. Holding her with left hand, putting the head on her side, he closed his eyes again. And holding her, he was murmuring…..
“I am poor in speaking truth but I am rich with words that you wish to be heard… !”
I always said – “You are beautiful. Did I ever said – You look beautiful?”
“Priya… not many beauty queens will pick up a sick puppy from the street.”
“Not many will have such caring hands to wipe the tears.”
“I am a man, because you made me feel so.”
“……………………”
“……………………”
“These hairs have a fragrance that I can feel…” And his fingers played with her hairs and she felt the pleasant waves in them.

After a brief silence, he opened his eyes and said, “Your mirror may lie to you….but not my eyes….look into my eyes.”

And the little “Masy” was playing there.

Life’s Changing Tunes – 4

During the govt job, first thing I bought was a laptop computer. In govt office, though there were good computers for work ( at my office only) , carrying a laptop was exclusively style display. But I needed that for my specific set of hardware and software combinations, that was not possible in office systems. And the laptop I bought with hard earned salary and with support from Ma , is too dear to me. While I bought that, that laptop was packed in a TV kinda size box. I carried that laptop box on my legs. I did not wanted to give a jerk on that. Now I feel to cry, when I see at airports, the laptop bags keep rolling during/after security check ups.

I did small puja of laptop at home. But before that one intresting episode here. My younger sister , Pinky was most eager to see the laptop. I entered the house around 8 pm in night. She was away. I took out laptop from the box and kept the laptop in other room to play a gimmick with her. The box I kept in Ma’s room. She came in house and after seeing laptop big box, she said first to put that in Puja room. I said – “not necessary”. She wanted to put some traditional values in me 🙂 She picked up the box without checking the laptop inside and kept in Puja room. She then did small puja and said to open that. There was nothing, as I had already taken laptop out. She was about to cry – why did I took the laptop before and also did not told her in time. 🙂 Anyway being younger, she did not beat me up 🙂

Anyway laptop of my own, year 2004. I had to carry that to office. I did not had motorcycle. Only other  conveyance for the small town was bicycle or rickshaw. Carrying a laptop on bicycle and returning home late night was not safe. I changed the bag of laptop. I used a general office big bag, laptop embedded inside. Kisi ki buri najar na lage. I used to carry laptop on bicycle.  At office for visitors – it was piece of ajooba.  As I was ‘sir’ for the visitors – they did not mingled with me to see the piece.  Somedays, when it was really late, I used to keep the laptop in office only. 

Life’s Changing Tunes – 3

A Bagful of books, and a suitcase of cloths and laptop embedded in that. I got down the AC III tier. As the train was entering the Bangalore, I was looking towards the building – may In some of these houses, I can stay. I saw hundreds going to their duties – may I also go like them. Leaving the govt. job that too of home town was not an easy decision. But I had taken that.

And I was staying in the paying guest. I had to prepare for the Job market ! I had to sell myself, my personality, my knowledge. Who will recognise them ? Will some one worth ? But to the field, I had to dedicate was a tough task for me. For few days I came to cybercafe regularly .After that took the decision of taking a broadband at home itself. As internet was the only vehicle – that was the root of my career and search for career. Month passed on – there was nothing new to said to be home. I Bought my first mobile, other wise at home town there it was not needed. By the time, I had choose out my field of specialization. Now I had to present myself.

I send my resume to my friends for cross verification. They seemed getting irritated. I needed confidence with a good resume. Good resume means – how the best way – we represent ourselves. I took professional help. From Delhi the lady helped me to make my resume good.

In the meantime, I prepared my fundamentals strong and prepared with my last work experiences. i put my resume to the job sites. Within 3 days, the call started coming. Ranging from HP, IBM, Mindtree, Kolkata Chennai and Pune. I had wide options of opportunities. I went for interviews. The frequency need to be matched and each others expectations. I appeared for walk ins.

And within 15 days I got the job. And I had my own tag to hang, that was not there in govt job. I had money, more than expected. I had designation, and I landed with satisfaction – for step 1.

The man in me

Many a times in life, you think I will never do that. Or may that chance never comes in life. But you have to do. And all these happens, especially when you are man ! The male ego !

But the life has its own moves, own rhythm, own game. Things happen in such a way that, you never expect them to happen. Or you get something that you never expected.Anyway loved the game of life as it goes on.

And I had to put my profile in a matrimonial site, keeping my man aside. Feels I am relaxed. I guess the winning or losing does not matter much, most important is to play.